I am resurrecting the mother *bleeping* blog!
It’s been 3 years since my last post and I am actually surprised about that. I thought I had given this up much longer ago. Is that even proper phraseology? Whatever.
Exactly 5 years ago, I decided to go on a juice cleanse. And while I do not regret a minute of it, because: life, I ended gaining not all but over half of what I lost. So I have decided to do another reset. I don’t think I want to do another 72 cleanse but I have seen 3 generations of women in my family… my future in the weight department is not bright. I am going to have to work hard to stay fit and maintain the quality of life I like. Upon concluding the last cleanse, I promised myself I would never do another because to be honest I pretty much starved myself. But like the last time, I do not like my relationship with food which I find unhealthy and a source of shame. Currently, I am in the research phase which not unlike my previous journey, said research can be deemed very rudimentary. I left a city with little to no winter and moved to one with real winter so I am toying with the idea of incorporating broth or soup into the cleanse because I absolutely detest consuming cold food in cold weather. I tend to make up the rules as I go so we’ll see! I will tell you this, I am excited. Very excited. I know it will take about 12 days before I stop looking at my co-workers and seeing food but I am up for the challenge.
There are a couple of things I want to do differently this time. 1) I am going to workout for the duration of the cleanse and 2) I want to incorporate some mindfulness and meditation if possible. I want to abstain from visual stimulation, nurture my creativity and try to find some peace within. Meditation and I do not do too well together because I am not a fan of hearing myself think. In person, I am typically an introvert who does not talk much however my inner voice never seems to shut the *bleep* up. But, *le sigh* I am going to try the meditation thing.
So, for now, I am going to set the cleanse at 30 days, max 60 but knowing myself, once I get good and going, I will decide to beat my 72 days. Either way, once I return from Christmas vacation, thunder thighs, you are going down!